I don't want to cry in the pain.
I wake up in a nightmare, I fall a sleep
Wishing I don't have to cry all day and all the nights
I don't want to cry in the pain.
I don't want to cry in the pain.
I wake up in a nightmare, I fall a sleep
Wishing I don't have to cry all day and all the nights
I don't want to cry in the pain.
The morning after the rain, I can't wake up.
The sun light comes shining through, kinda day.
Don't wake me up yet today, please.
The morning after the rain, I can't wake up.
Leave me alone. Leave me alone.
Leave me alone. Let me stay like this for a little while.
Leave me alone. Leave me alone.
Leave me alone. Let me stay like this for a little while.
The morning after the rain, I can't wake up.
Leave me alone. Leave me alone.
Leave me alone. Let me stay like this for a little while.
Leave me alone. Leave me alone.
Leave me alone. Let me stay like this for a little while.
The morning after the rain, I can't wake up.
The sun light comes shining through, kinda day.
Don't wake me up yet today, please.
Leave me alone. Leave me alone.
Leave me alone. Let me stay like this for a little while.
Not today, but I'll do my best.
離れたいけど、but I can't wake up
離れたいけど、but I can't wake up
離れたいけど、but I can't wake up
離れたいけど、but I can't wake up
I'm gonna make somebody love me
but
oh yeah
so
do you wanna be somebody else?
but
oh yeah
so
but
oh yeah
in the morning without your smile
I don't wanna wakeup in the morning
I don't wanna wakeup in the morning
I don't wanna wakeup in the morning
I don't wanna wakeup in the morning
A crestfallen vagabond wandering around with negative thoughts
Violating his hopes and dreams.
All he wanted was to feel loved
And now it's time to vent about it.
So Kaz, why are you so negative all the time?
Nobody cares about the clown when his sadness has taken over
When the world has overwhelmed him it's hard even staying sober
As he clings on to the past and replaying his favorite moments
Realizing so much has changed he breaks down and lay there hopeless
Cutting communication like this is the perfect therapy
Wondering if somebody will ever ever be there for me
Before I admit I'm wrong, I'll play the victim
Blame the world before I beg for it's forgiveness
I live inside of my head some thoughts must get evicted
Someone take it all away I just hope that I'll never miss it
As time goes on, traveling through each outcomes
Til I no longer am a victim, or a dweller for nostalgia
It's me against the world, till kingdom come
It's me against the world, till kingdom come
It's sad boy hours stand the fuck up
It's sad boy hours stand the fuck up
If you are depressed stand the fuck up
Don't listen to these hoes it's okay to cry
How many bags I gotta chase ‘til I get outta mine?
How many times I gotta lie when I say I'm alright?
How many smiles I gotta fake cause my ass ‘bout to cry..
How many times will I say sorry I shouldn't apologize..
How much pussy will it take for me to move on completely?
How much changing will it take to be that person that she needs?
How many hardships until this life becomes easy?
How much drugs will I take ‘til I... fuck it nevermind
My name is Kaz and I don't have a place to call home.
Been moving all my life and honestly it all blows
The ones I love the most be living hella far so
It has me distancing myself from all the friends that are close so
I locked myself in this room that's the life of this creator
Yelling everyday cops are called on me cause I piss off the neighbors
Friends be texting me but I don't got the time, I'll talk to'em later
Gotta put in work last thing I wanna be called is a failure
Can't maintain communication, admit that I suck at that shit
I tend to ghost all my people don't notice
when some months have passed since
I'll hit'em up randomly asking ‘what's up' as if nothing had happened
And wonder why all my relationships end up all fucking disastrous
The fuck is wrong with me? I just want to be
Something far from weak, up my artistry
They're punching cards but me, I'm running far for this dream
Nothings stopping me I cut y'all off for weeks
For what's tomorrow means nothing promising
Trouble follows deep confront me? Nah just leave
I suck at arguing don't fucking start with me
I can't say I was a perfect boyfriend
Time has passed, but I hold on to moments as seconds turn minutes
Ups and the downs just for her to live life like I never existed
Locked myself in this room that's the life of this ‘savior'
Yelling everyday cops called on me I piss off the neighbors
Good intentions interpreted as toxic behavior
But I gotta put in work, last thing I wanna be called is a f-
Honestly I don't know how to fucking start this
Yeah, when my dad dies I honestly don't think that I'ma cry
It's not that I don't like the guy, when I was young I tried and tried
To build a bond with him even when he ain't see eye to eye
With my moms after their divorce was finalized, fuck
A black boy that barely knows his father, oh so typical
I remember wanting to see him but shit was difficult
He had a new family and that made me feel invisible
Vacations that I wasn't invited to left me miserable
Got 2 kids from a new wife and she hates my mom with all her life
Trying to be a part of their lives
but they do not try to be part of mine
So I'm that boy that always cried, forced to let this trauma hide
I can't even imagine what a father-son talk is like
Every friend I make I expect them to leave
It's unhealthy to think my friends are temporary
But shit, I see us drifting already. Depressing to see
So if I die, fuck it. it's probably better 6 f-
There are nights I went to sleep
Yeah
No one there to save me from my thoughts
Yeah
There are things I fucking miss
Yeah
I don't know where my head's at…
I got some issues in my head when I dream