there are nights i went to sleepの歌が含まれ

Meet Kazuo

A crestfallen vagabond wandering around with negative thoughts

Violating his hopes and dreams.

All he wanted was to feel loved

And now it's time to vent about it.

So Kaz, why are you so negative all the time？

おいカズオ、お前の態度が嫌い

Nobody cares about the clown when his sadness has taken over

When the world has overwhelmed him it's hard even staying sober

As he clings on to the past and replaying his favorite moments

Realizing so much has changed he breaks down and lay there hopeless

Somedays I feel progression

Somedays I wanna end it

Somedays I value friendship

But cave into depression

Cutting communication like this is the perfect therapy

Wondering if somebody will ever ever be there for me

Before I admit I'm wrong, I'll play the victim

Blame the world before I beg for it's forgiveness

I live inside of my head some thoughts must get evicted

Someone take it all away I just hope that I'll never miss it

As time goes on, traveling through each outcomes

Til I no longer am a victim, or a dweller for nostalgia

It's me against the world, till kingdom come

It's me against the world, till kingdom come

It's sad boy hours stand the fuck up

It's sad boy hours stand the fuck up

If you are depressed stand the fuck up

Don't listen to these hoes it's okay to cry

Alright, yo

How many bags I gotta chase ‘til I get outta mine？

How many times I gotta lie when I say I'm alright？

How many smiles I gotta fake cause my ass ‘bout to cry..

How many times will I say sorry I shouldn't apologize..

How much pussy will it take for me to move on completely？

How much changing will it take to be that person that she needs？

How many hardships until this life becomes easy？

How much drugs will I take ‘til I... fuck it nevermind

My name is Kaz and I don't have a place to call home.

Been moving all my life and honestly it all blows

The ones I love the most be living hella far so

It has me distancing myself from all the friends that are close so

I locked myself in this room that's the life of this creator

Yelling everyday cops are called on me cause I piss off the neighbors

Friends be texting me but I don't got the time, I'll talk to'em later

Gotta put in work last thing I wanna be called is a failure

Can't maintain communication, admit that I suck at that shit

I tend to ghost all my people don't notice

when some months have passed since

I'll hit'em up randomly asking ‘what's up' as if nothing had happened

And wonder why all my relationships end up all fucking disastrous

The fuck is wrong with me？ I just want to be

Something far from weak, up my artistry

But I'm under all this heat

They're punching cards but me, I'm running far for this dream

Nothings stopping me I cut y'all off for weeks

For what's tomorrow means nothing promising

Trouble follows deep confront me？ Nah just leave

I suck at arguing don't fucking start with me

Fuck your honesty

No wonder why G- left

Oh it really hurts huh？

I can't say I was a perfect boyfriend

But she was the first love

Time has passed, but I hold on to moments as seconds turn minutes

4 years of history.

Ups and the downs just for her to live life like I never existed

Locked myself in this room that's the life of this ‘savior'

Yelling everyday cops called on me I piss off the neighbors

Good intentions interpreted as toxic behavior

But I gotta put in work, last thing I wanna be called is a f-

Press a button to begin…

Yeah yeah

Honestly I don't know how to fucking start this

Aight Imma let it rock

Yo, okay.. Look, real shit

Yeah, when my dad dies I honestly don't think that I'ma cry

It's not that I don't like the guy, when I was young I tried and tried

To build a bond with him even when he ain't see eye to eye

With my moms after their divorce was finalized, fuck

A black boy that barely knows his father, oh so typical

I remember wanting to see him but shit was difficult

He had a new family and that made me feel invisible

Vacations that I wasn't invited to left me miserable

Got 2 kids from a new wife and she hates my mom with all her life

Trying to be a part of their lives

but they do not try to be part of mine

So I'm that boy that always cried, forced to let this trauma hide

I can't even imagine what a father-son talk is like

Every friend I make I expect them to leave

It's unhealthy to think my friends are temporary

But shit, I see us drifting already. Depressing to see

So if I die, fuck it. it's probably better 6 f-

There are nights I went to sleep

Hoping I don't wake up

Yeah

No one there to save me from my thoughts

‘Cause I don't say much

Yeah

There are things I fucking miss

That I'ma never get back

Yeah

I'm a victim of nostalgia

I don't know where my head's at…

Wake up, Kazuo

I don't feel so good

Never do what I should

I'm gone with the wind

And all my dreams are

I don't feel so good

Never do what I should

I'm gone with the wind

And all my dreams are

I got some problems

That I bottle

Up inside of my soul

I said my sorry's

But I'm awkward

It's out of my control

I got some issues in my head when I dream

I can't wake up no more, no more

起きなさいカズオ